My Journey Starts Today

I am writing this today not for you, but for me. It isn't often that I do things for me but I have decided that no one else is gonna do this for me.
I sit here writing this weighing 197 pounds. Yep I just typed my weight for anyone who is looking to see. I know some skinny women who would NEVER share that information. Why put myself out there? Why allow that criticism? Why bother letting that little, ok, well not so little secret out. People always say there are 2 things you never ask a woman 1. Her age, 2. Her weight. well my age is 39, weight much like my age, is a number.
I carry my weight well but it is there. I notice it when I sit on the couch. when I am sitting at my desk at work. I am aware that I am not a "small" person and for the most part I am ok with how I look most days. there are days that I have really low self esteem like anyone but it is something I can do something about. so why this and why now?
I am watching Biggest Loser of course and all I can think is someone that weighed 400 pounds just ran a 5K. He can do it why not me? Why am I sitting on my rather robust bottom and not doing something about it. I have decided that I am going to write a blog about my journey.
I plan on sharing what I am eating, drinking, how I am exercising, and anything in between. The food aspect should be interesting because I am one PICKY PICKY eater. I watch what they have the contestants eat and thing "BARF" lol but, I am going to make the best of it my way. ( I think Yard lettuce just like Aaron Goodwin says) I am going to be honest and open and just share. I am hoping to record my progress in this blog so I can hold myself accountable.
So here it is hopefully within 6 months people can use the word small, defined, un-fat, when talking about me, however if not I am not going to give up. I am going to be able to look in the mirror and say "hello beautiful" and turn heads.
I hope after this I can look back and realize even now I should have a postive outlook and have a great self esteem because I have pretty eyes, a great smile, and terrific _ _ _ _ _.  Those positive feelings and self esteem are hard to come by but I am going to keep smiling.

Just getting started

I am just getting started with blogging so I will be adding more about me and what I stand for. I might go off on a wild taggent or I might make total sense. Depends on my mood. I used to write as a way to get what I can't really say because it might offend or it might be taken wrong. I am going to use this as a tool to allow people to know the real me and to allow myself the freedom to express how I feel without fear.
You can  comment and feel what you want but the only opinon of me that matters, is mine. =) I am a person who prides themselves in looking at myself honestly. I am by no means perfect but I strive everyday to make it memorable.
Like I said more to come later. I hope you will find delight in reading this blog and maybe as time goes on learn about me and maybe a little about yourself.
What can you accomplish if it weren't the fear of failure or being made fun of?